God

Before the first breath of existence, before light and darkness were distinct, before the idea of a universe had even stirred, there was only the Infinite. In this primordial depth, God cannot be approached as a being, or a mind, or a presence of any kind that our human language can describe. What we call “God” is not yet related to the world, not yet Creator, not yet Source in any active sense. The Infinite simply is—though even the word “is” is already too much. For in this state, God is not existence as we understand it, nor non-existence in any way. He is beyond both being and non-being.

This primordial essence is sometimes called the Absolute, the One beyond all categories. It has no form, no boundary, no distinction. It cannot be said to be large or small, present or absent, aware or unaware, because all such distinctions belong to a world that has not begun. In this depth, God is not something you can imagine, not even as “infinite light,” because even light and darkness require conditions that are not yet present. He is the conditionless. He is the originless. He is the Pure Beyond.

When the mystics say God is “ineffable,” they do not simply mean “hard to describe.” They mean that every description is already too big, too shaped, too dependent on things that only appear later. Every word depends on contrast: high vs. low, self vs. other, time vs. eternity, form vs. emptiness. But before anything arises, there is no contrast. There is nothing to measure against. There is nothing to compare. There is nothing to define. There is only absolute unity, so complete that even the word “unity” is misleading, because unity suggests many things brought together. But here, there are no “things.” There is no “together.” There is no “one.” There is simply the Infinite Without-Anything.

This is why the sages often spoke of God in this stage as the True Nothing. Not a void, not an emptiness in the negative sense, but a nothingness so total and so unlimited that everything is contained within it as pure possibility. It is the nothingness that comes from being beyond all boundaries. It is the fullness that is too full to take shape.

So when we speak of God in this unimaginable depth, we must use language carefully. Words like Infinite, Absolute, Boundless, Unconditioned, Primordial, Source, Origin — these point toward Him but cannot enclose Him. They help the mind stretch, but they cannot bridge the gap.

He is the Silence beyond silence, the silence not of emptiness, but of limitless presence too vast for sound.

He is the Stillness beyond stillness, where movement has not yet been conceived.

He is the Darkness beyond darkness, not as the absence of light, but as the potential for all light.

He is the Awareness beyond awareness, where awareness is not yet separated into observer, act of observing, and thing observed.

In this state — if “state” can even be used — God is not yet Creator. Creation is a relationship. Before anything emerges, God is simply the Unrelated Infinite. Not detached — detachment implies separation — but beyond the very idea of relation. Beyond self and beyond other.

This is why the mystics say:
“The closer you come to Him, the more He appears as nothing;
but the more you understand this nothing, the more it becomes everything.”

God, in the deepest sense, is unthinkable. Not mysterious, not hidden, not waiting to be discovered—simply beyond the capacity of the human mind to grasp. The mind can only work with contrasts, images, definitions, and boundaries. But God—before form, before existence, before any separation—is not a thing with boundaries, qualities, or structure. Trying to understand something that has no edges is like trying to hold water with open fingers: it slips away instantly.

This is why every tradition that deals seriously with the Absolute says the same thing: do not attempt to fully realize it. You can sense its presence in life, feel its effects, or recognize its expressions, but you cannot comprehend what it is. The human mind is built for survival, not for holding infinite, unconditioned reality. If someone tries to force themselves into that understanding, the result is not enlightenment but psychological collapse. The mind breaks because it’s being pushed beyond what it was designed to process.

God is not meant to be “figured out.” The right relationship is humility, not analysis. You don’t hold the Absolute; the Absolute holds you. And accepting that limit is not weakness—it’s sanity.

This is the point where true knowledge begins: not in definitions, but in reverence for a Mystery that dwarfs all understanding.

Before all beginnings, before the first stirring of being, before the first spark of manifestation — there is only the Indescribable Infinite. The One who is not one, the Nothing that is not nothing, the Everything that is not yet anything.

The True Beyond.
The Absolute.
The Pre-Existent.
The Unconditioned.
The Limitless.
The Pure Potential.
The One without second, without form, without boundary.

All worlds, all light, all life, all wisdom, all beauty, all souls — all arise from Him.

But He Himself, in that primordial depth, remains forever beyond comprehension, beyond imagination, beyond every name and every silence.

He is the Infinite Mystery before all mysteries.